We already know what's right and wrong, but when you are suffering from mental illnesses, your thinking could be twisted. Sometimes, the concept of right and wrong gets blurry along with your memories. So, the message here is to seek help and find your ground. If you are lucky enough to be 'normal enough' and free from any of these illnesses, always listen. Be patient. People with mental illnesses have the capacity to always withdraw. Hold them and keep them near at all cost. Do not let them float in the abyss alone.
I think it is something I will never get the answer to. I think it is the why that won't really makes sense to me. I just know that this is just one aspects of life that I will keep on questioning as it happens. But I know, in other paths of this journey, we can be genuinely happy without hurting others. I hope we always choose that.