2017 was so eventful; all the changes that happened were in the form of destruction. Still, it brought lessons. 2018 is also eventful but in a completely different way. All changes that are happening now are focused on rebuilding the life I want.
Why do we cry alone? Why don't we reach out when we're sad and then wonder why we feel lonely? Why do we deny ourselves of comfort and companion and wonder why we are never in a deep relationship with people—soul to soul?
We have 2 months left until the year ends IT'S INSANE. How can time feel so slow but going too fast at the same time???? IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE. Anyway, it's starting to get cold. I hope you are warm and living life. You matter
I drowned when I was 11 (bless I'm still alive!), so when I say that I feel like drowning, I really know what it's like.
I'd like to believe that I see you in all the bright places. I do. But, I also see you in all the dark corners—shining brightly; telling me it's all going to be okay; urging me to keep going. I am so grateful for that presence you left in my heart. It is heavy but it was better than the void. I am so grateful for the rain. It was raining then, wasn't it? It was really cold.
If we can't be entirely true to the people around us (because we all have this facade, walls, barricade, or whichever you call it, built up so high), let us at least be honest to ourselves.
We owe at least that to ourselves. Growth is painful.
How's your day today? Please stay strong xx
She would miss you on the rainy days of chaos and comfort or even the days when the waves were calm and the horizon was clear.