Healing isn't linear. I'm writing this now because I know there will be days that I might relapse again. I want to immortalize these thoughts into words so I can have a reminder to myself. I hope that it can be a reminder to you as well – that emotions are fleeting, but our words and actions are not. I hope we can live with fewer regrets. Also, I believe that if we can be mindful of our emotions, be in touch with it, we can react in a way that won't destroy ourselves and others.
My pets are stray cats that just magically appeared on our doorstep, and of course, the more you feed them, the more they would stay. So stay they did until days turn to a year and so. I gave them names; I play with them. They make me sane. I hate how I become so attached and emotionally dependent to them, too. Sigh.
The people in our lives are like chapters in a book. We meet them in certain happenstance, and sometimes, they just stay there. We can’t really expect them to be there in the succeeding chapters, and that’s fine because they still serve their purpose. They still impart something on us; they are still part of the story.
How about you? How do you express yourself?
If being hard on ourselves mean we just want to be the best version that we possibly can, then be it.
Remember when I said I’m getting a tattoo when I turned 25? It finally happened last month.
I think the lesson here is do not always change number, or always write down your log ins or whatever.