And somehow, time seems to be timeless.
I think the lesson here is do not always change number, or always write down your log ins or whatever.
I just mentioned on my previous post that I lost the will to blog, but I got an email about my current plan. This year is my 5th year blogging (not that I've been doing it consistently the first 3 years). I asked myself if it is still worth it to renew. Will I lose… Continue reading an email – a reminder to blog?
Before, I really make time for this. No excuses. I will write anything, but maybe that’s when I lost it. I just write, without a purpose. I just write to release. While that is a purpose in itself, it only benefits me. It is different reaching out to people and have your words make its impact, touching other’s heartstrings. I lost that magic, I believe. So maybe—just maybe—I am discouraged? I want my writings to be useful if you know what I mean.
It is also when the thought of co-creating comes to mind. I believe in Amor Fati so much—the things we can control and the things we can’t. We co-create this life we have. Sure, there’s ‘God-will’ but also free will. Nothing is absolute.
Stories are never my forte. I still believe poetry and blogging are what I’m best at. In poems, I don’t have to build characters and plot—I just follow my heart. In blogging, I just casually talk to you—like writing in a diary. Creating an entire world of your own, characters, settings, main and side stories, well, it’s SO hard.
I chose the word to remind myself that I have a control over my brain instead of the other way around.
2017 was so eventful; all the changes that happened were in the form of destruction. Still, it brought lessons. 2018 is also eventful but in a completely different way. All changes that are happening now are focused on rebuilding the life I want.