It’s that time of the year again! How is your 2019? Mine is mad crazy! A lot has happened, and usually, I would be the one who will blog about every single thing. But then again, IT IS MAD CRAZY. I was really busy I don’t have enough time for blogging – that, or I have gotten so bad in time management. ☹ (or my creativity is just depleted)
I remember a friend told me once when we went out, “Take pictures in case you want to blog it later.”
I surprised myself when I said, “I don’t think I will blog this. I didn’t even think of that.”
I just really wanted to enjoy the moments instead of thinking I need to post it. Maybe I will try to get things into detail next year, but for now, I would like to share my life lately through photos.
I repeat, 2019 IS MAD CRAZY.
Let’s start with the grave, harsh, cruel reality we are in. People die. And this year, I lost three of the people I value in my life.
That is life, I guess. You can’t have the whole year in bliss. Maybe John Green deserves rights when he said that pain demands to be felt.
But like everyone else, life goes on for me. And these are probably some of my favorite firsts: my first tattoo, my first bowling experience (my score ain’t bad hehe), and the first time I got a kitten through Twitter (I mean, that is something that doesn’t usually happen!).
5SOS and Friends
If 2018 was the year I isolated myself, I think you could say that 2019 is when I tried (really hard) to be present again (even I still fail at times). And I must say, I am ending this year really tired. :’D Hopefully, I can watch concerts again. I miss the noise and happy faces of the fangirls and fanboys that are having the best time of their lives. It is the kind of energy I would like to surround myself with.
I travelled a lot too! For someone who doesn’t go out, this is already a lot for me. It’s really tiring! I had so much fun, though. Also, I had lots of epiphanies that were just sitting on my drafts. I can’t wait to share my thoughts about human resistance and other things I experienced during these trips.
Van Gogh Alive Manila
We also went to see Van Gogh Alive. Was the experience worth it? I’m gonna say yes. Sure, it is not as spacious as how we saw it in other countries, but I still enjoyed it. I don’t know, we have different ways on how to consume arts, anyway. 🙂
Perpetually Chasing The Sunset
Of course, my Taurus moon needs to take food photos here and then.
I have finished 9 kdramas this year!
- Radio Romance
- Hello My Twenties 1
- Hello My Twenties 2
- Reply 1988
- Her Private Life
- Hotel Del Luna
- Sky Castle
- Kill Me, Heal Me
What a shame, I didn’t review everything. Though you can read other korean drama reviews I did here.
Recently, the stan twt is filled with this Chinese drama called The Untamed. I’m going to watch this too. 50 episodes, tho! I want to read the novel as well as listen to the audio drama. The fans of this are well fed!
I have seen a couple of movies too in cinemas. I normally do not watch in cinemas, but I have to thank my friends for dragging me.
- Avengers: Endgame
- Toy Story 4
- Hello World
I also have watched movies that I streamed online, but yea.. I don’t remember all. This is what I get from stopping my journaling. 🥴 Let me try to list what I remember:
- Five Feet Apart
- The Sun Is Also a Star
- Hello, Love, Goodbye
Music & Books
If you have been reading my blog posts, are you even surprised? LOL
Soundcloud has its playback too. I remember someone told me that it is not hard to tell that I am jin-biased. I mean, worldwide vocal king.
I only managed to finish a poetry book (that I will post a review soon). I reread The Hunger Games too because of the upcoming prequel: The Ballad of Songbirds and Snakes. I also started reading Norwegian Wood and Regretting You. I really really want to go back to reading (but I’ve been saying that for years now huhu).
I can’t grasp the fact that I finished two manuscript this year! It is for clients though, not mine. Hopefully, I can finish my personal poetry collection too. This year, I only managed to write 11 poems. I will post them soon!
There’s just a lot more into this list… too many cans of beers, cups of coffee, tubs of ice cream, shots of cocktails, slices of cakes, and bars of chocolates, among many others. But yea, I think this is it for my 2019 wrapped up.
I also want to share what I realised this year, there is more to it than failing; than deeming yourself as a failure. When you feel like you are at the lowest of the lows, every breakdown will feel like the end of the world. But it is not. Breakdowns, I think, force you to stop, rest for awhile and rethink what you are doing. But getting up? It is harder than the fall itself. Maybe that is why it’s called breakthrough: you have to break yourself over and over again before you can build a stronger foundation within. We always always just gets stronger in the process. Do not be afraid to cry, breakdown, surrender to your emotions. It is needed for you to be able to let go, and then go on. We can’t live with our traumas forever.
These days, I always find myself thinking, “you know, it can be worse.” And I am not sure if it is a good mindset to have, I just know that it helps me cope somehow. It eases the anxiety somehow. I hope we all heal. <33
So, what did you learn this year? Do you have New Year’s resolution? I don’t think I have. I will just make sure I have better plans, probably.
Oh, here… my last selca of the decade. 🤪 See you on 2020! Happy New Year!
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