I have said this a million times already; I love the rain so much. Yesterday, RM released his
mixtape playlist called Mono, and along with it was a music video for the song entitled Forever Rain – and that, my friends, is where I’m coming from.
I don’t think anyone has understood my love for the rain as much as RM does. The lyrics just resonate with me so loud that I felt the need to write about it.
However, RM did not release official lyrics for it, so the translation might not be exactly as it is. He said that he intentionally did it so that we can listen to it with our own interpretation – and that, my friends, is how music should be consumed. It is an art after all. Gaaah, his inner poet!
Before I can proceed on my take about the music video and the song, watch it first if you haven’t already. Otherwise, get out of here because you will be clueless of what I am saying. LMAO
I wish it rains all day because then people wouldn’t stare at me.
I mentioned to a friend once that one of the reasons why I love the rain is that it keeps people away. No, I do not hate people. I love you. I just easily get drained. I can’t go out without getting a headache or feeling so tired after. Every time I go home, I just want to go to sleep right away. And no, it is not because I am weak. LOL! Some energies are just really heavy to carry all at once.
Also, when it rains, I can go out feeling less anxious because most people prefer to stay inside. Hehehe :]
The umbrella would cover the sad face because, in the rain, people are busy minding themselves.
He also mentioned in the song: slow rap / slow jam / slow rain / everything slow
Somehow, the rain makes me feel like I am standing still. I do not chase or dread time. I am just suspended in the air. I don’t know if that is a good thing, because obviously, the world does not stop for everyone. But that feeling of idleness, of things being slow instead of going too fast, it is tranquil at some point.
“When it rains / it’s a little better / I get a feeling that I do have a friend / keeps knocking on my windows / asks me if I’m doing well / And I answer, I’m still a hostage of life”
Aren’t we all??? I feel this on a spiritual level.
I don’t live because I can’t die, but I am chained to something.
Okay, probably I am bawling my eyes out for the nth time. It is not like I can’t die, I will someday, we will all die eventually. And I can, but I don’t want to go there ever again. It is never an option.
I’m still thinking what he is chained on to, though, because personally, it would be myself. I am chained to myself. At the back of my head, I still want to go on; I still have things to fulfill – whatever that is.
Another thing that you can’t miss in the music video is the shadow – the darkness. I think the shadow can be interpreted as a friend; that you need to be a friend to yourself too. Also, your shadow is you. Your darkness is you. It is not something you can get rid of because it is part of you. RM has always been vocal about accepting all sides of him. Darkness is not necessarily bad or evil, do not twist it.
In the first part of the video, you should notice how the rain comes in different forms. It is up to you what you would portray the rain as. I love how it screams, what is rain to you?
Sadness is that black hole that sucks you in, like that big black circle in the music video – that is what rain is like for me. It is easy to be devoured by that blackness because the rain has a sense of calm to it despite it being melancholic and sad. It gives me a sense of comfort for some unknown reasons. It is so easy to give in.
The rain makes me feel as well. Sometimes, I am tired of feeling too much, but that is me. I panic when I can’t cry when I feel like crying because that is all I know. I cope with my emotions by releasing it.
I love how in the music video, the rain shatters that stillness of blackness because even the ones who seem so composed and do not feel have their own emotions.
Just like what RM said, I wish it rains all day too. Sadly, it can’t.
When it rains, I don’t have to fake it. I am not expected to have high energy or act cheeky because well, it is raining – as if it is enough reason to feel down.
It is raining, and it is just me.
Of course, Joon got me into writing again after being gone for I don’t know how long. I just don’t have the time to write, and it makes me so sad :[
All my ideas feel outdated now that I don’t know if I should still write it so I end up NOT blogging it. How frustrating?
Anyway, I hope you are all doing good. I miss this part of me, but I’ll talk to you real soon.
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