I turned a year older! Last year, I wrote on my birthday: “I am in that chapter of my life wherein I feel lost. I keep running after the time, the days, the moments..”
The past year still felt like it sometimes but I think I kind of found my right place in the maze. I see life as a perpetual labyrinth; something we keep on walking through passages after passages. We may still be a long waaaay towards the exit but each path leads us somewhere. At least we are going places, right? One path may be filled with flowers and you are blinded by the sun’s splendor while the other feels like whirlpools ready to drown you to death. Each path may be different from the others but all paths will surely take you anywhere. We will always feel lost most of the time but no one can really point us here or there. We are our own compass. Aside from that epiphany, I also got some more..
YOU ARE STRONG.
At least give yourself that credit. You have been through so much and you keep on making it.
IT IS NEVER TOO LATE TO LIGHT UP YOUR PASSION.
There will be days when your light will falter. There will be days when your anxiety will take over and you’ll end locking yourself up in your room. But there are also days when you will feel the sunlight pass through your window. Hold on to that. Hold on to that rare moment. It’s never too late to go out there and feel the grass beneath your feet and the sky above your head. It’s never too late to do something you’ve been wanting for so long. It’s never too late to see the world. It’s never too late to see yourself in it.
DO NOT BE PRESSURED IN PURSUING YOUR DREAMS.
Not all eyes are on you. Some people are too busy with themselves to check on you. It’s your dream in the first place, no one can tell you you’re going slow. You take your own time. Going after a dream should be fun. You will struggle but it will be fun because it’s gonna be worth it. You will shine in full spectrum.
YOU ARE WORTH IT.
I don’t know how much I have said this but last year, I got my heart beaten so badly. I kept asking myself why I wasn’t enough; where do I lack; what have I done wrong; is there something I should’ve done? Do not ever question your worth just because someone failed to see it. If someone does really love you, everything else pales in comparison. He will embrace all that you are.
TURN YOUR PAIN INTO ART. YOU ARE A VESSEL OF CRAFTS.
When I felt like no one was there for me (of course this isn’t true because there will always be people you can rely on—even if that’s just literally one person; even if sometimes it doesn’t feel like it), words have always been there. I haven’t felt the writer’s block since I decided to take this blogging thing seriously. I wrote down the worst heartbreak I’ve ever had and the reconciliation I had with myself. I bled words until there were no more tears. I got to publish some of my writings in Thought Catalog and that will always be something I will be proud of. I am “a masterpiece in progress.”
I guess those are the things I want to impart. Also, I have my own wishes too. They said if you tell your wish, it won’t come true. I’d say, it won’t come true if you’re not gonna work for it. Perspective.
Anyway, I blew the candle but to my dismay, dokkaebi didn’t appear. 😂
These are the things I hope/wish for the next year and I really want to stick with these (hence, writing it down for monitoring purposes 😂)
I WILL GET A TATTOO ON MY NEXT BIRTHDAY. I already tried writing it on my left wrist.
I WILL LEARN HANGUL. Please help/teach me 😂
I WISH TO BE BETTER IN BLOGGING. I used to be discouraged ‘cause I feel like no one really reads my work but I was surprised to hit 10,000 just before my birthday and I can’t thank you guys enough! You keep sending me nice words and I swear I’m always in the verge of tears whenever you do. I appreciate it so much.
I HOPE TO FINISH MY MANUSCRIPT. AAAAAAH HOW I WISH. WORK. WORK. WORK. ON. IT.
I WANT TO BE BETTER IN EVERYTHING I DO. I am not perfect but I can always improve, right? I know I still will.
You guys have no idea how much I really love writing and reading and I’m so thankful for all of you who read everything I post. To extend my gratitude for your never ending support, I am giving away Sad Girls by Lang Leav.
ENTER THE GIVEAWAY HERE. (This will start at 12MN, June 19th)
*NOTE: for Philippine residents only
Also, I feel like I keep doing my giveaways here so I decided to do one for Twitter. My friend, Bel, went to Japan last week and she sure did visit KTown there. She got some KPOP items and I thought of my mutuals. Yiee. I’m giving away:
- Seventeen Poster
- BTS Poster
- BTS Postcard
- BTS Pen
- EXO Postcard
- Got7 Postcard
Obviously, there are more BTS items because I’m their trash. 😂
Here are the mechanics:
- Follow me on Twitter. (I’d love to gain more KPOP mutuals because why not. I will definitely follow back! Saranghae! 💙)
- Quote tweet my pinned post regarding this giveaway with any caption but include the hashtag: #VKPOPGiveaway
There will only be one (1) lucky winner. I will choose randomly from tweets with that hashtag. This will run until June 24th, Saturday.
*NOTE: for Philippine residents only
If you want to buy some KPOP merch from Osaka, please see this group.
BEST OF LUCK TO EVERYONE AND I WISH WE CAN BE MORE CLOSE AND THAT YOU CAN RELATE MORE TO ME IN MORE WAYS THAN ONE.
ALL MY LOVE,