I just found out that my friend and her boyfriend for 8 years broke up after a month of being engaged. Now, I am the one crying. It makes me so dejected to see a relationship fail. I am in a very complicated situation myself so this knowledge adds up to my sorrow. And when my parents separated last year, I kind of lose my faith in Love. I know I have to restore it at some point but just.. not now.
8 years. How do you move on from that? You’ve been together most of your lives–through thick and thin–then poof (!!!!!) it’s gone. How do you forget someone who gave you so much to remember? Some say it’s not about how long you’ve been together, it’s the time you’ve spent together. Well, 8 YEARS. That’s saying SO MUCH.
My friend said that it is really hard but she’s coping. It’s been 3 months after all.
It broke my heart even more when she said “Ako na sana unang ikakasal sa barkada” (I was supposed to be the first to get married in our group) LIKE DUDE! WHERE YOU AT, LOVE?! WHY AREN’T YOU ENOUGH?! People lied, love doesn’t conquer all.
Isn’t that sad when we say that? Love should be enough, right? You should be enough. It is very afflicting how the world doesn’t work that way.
It’s easy to say you’ll get over it but the big question is when. It’s different for everyone. A year or two may have passed but you’d still find yourself heartsick about it. I think that’s inevitable. I think that’s normal. What isn’t normal is not letting yourself recover.
Do you wonder how many times a heart can break? EONS. It sure does feel like your heart stops beating from time to time because of so much pain–until you feel numb, you say. I don’t think we ever feel numb, though. In Love, we don’t. We either feel less or we feel more. Just not in the point of feeling nothing at all. We are humans, we tend to feel. Apathy is such a cruel word to be in the dictionary. So, feel more.
Do you wonder if you’ll ever fall in love again? You sure will. We are meant to love. We are all a sucker for it. No matter how much pain it causes us, we still try and try and try.
QUOTE TO REMEMBER:
Love is the gas that fuels us to live yet it can also be the fire that burns us to death.
Keep living a WANDERful life, wanderers!