Junice: You love him too much. You love him, why should he be scared? Yeah.

Me: Why should he be scared! Exactly! I just think, maybe he knows he can love me as much as I love him but it scares him ’cause love and heartbreak go hand in hand.

Junice: They go hand in hand that’s why you two should face it holding each other’s hand, right?

Me: He needs to grow some balls.

Junice: If I’m not trying to understand him, I’ll call him a freaking coward.

Me: He’s a freaking coward. I don’t blame him, tho.

“Lola,” He rolls his chair over to my side. “I know things are shite right now. And in the name of friendship and full disclosure, I went through something similar last year. When I met Anna, I was with someone else. And it took a long time before I found the courage to do the hard thing. But you have to do the hard thing.”

I swallow. ” And what’s the hard thing?”

“You have to be honest with yourself.”

And I realized he’s not a freaking coward. He did the hard thing. Not everyone has the courage to be true to himself.