Dear 27-year-old me,
How are you doing? It’s been 6 years, I hope you are where you want to be right now. I hope you’ve been to places you have either known through books or surfed online yet fell in love with them instantly. Are those places as beautiful as you imagined it would be? Maybe you are somewhere far away from here now but I hope the sky will remind you of the good old days, of the people you had the privilege to be with, of places that made you feel safe. I hope that things have changed for the better but don’t you dare forget the other things that have made you. You are who you are today because of every single bits and pieces of the past–both rad and bad.
I can see you looking through the beach right now, a book in your lap and good music blasting off your headphone. Is that Goo Goo Dolls’ I’m Still Here? Gaaaah! That song is forever gold! Just like the other bands/artists you have always loved your whole teenage years. Those were the days.
Oh, you have Italian spag beside you! I’m glad you no longer avoid bad carbs just because it scares the hell out of you to gain more weight. I hope you are comfortable with your skin now. I hope you have gained confidence already. Insecurity will always be there, lurking around the corner but keep in mind that everything has its beauty. ‘Drop everything you have that gets you down’.
And I remember how you always dreamed of watching the sunset with someone who loves you as much as you love him. I hope you are with that someone you have waited for what it seems like forever. I told you, it’s not about your looks or your figure. A soul fall in love with a soul. Remember the Snow Globe of Euphoria? I hope for your eternal bliss with that man.
But most importantly, I hope you are happy. You deserve whatever you have right now. And wherever you are, I hope it makes you feel like home.
From the girl who thought she would never get comfy in skirts and dresses but wears one most of the time now,
Your 21-year-old self
P.S – It’s scary that things keeps changing. But that doesn’t mean you need to change yourself completely. There’ll always be a part of you that’ll get old but hey, it’s nice to somehow be brand new, right? Continue to grow and explore. The world has so many things to offer. You just need to know where to go. Though, being lost is part of it all, you’ll always find the place where you belong. x
And I want a moment to be real
Want to touch things I don’t feel
Want to hold on and feel I belong
And how can they say I’ll never change?
They’re the ones that stay the same
I’m the one now
‘Cause I’m still here
— I’m Still Here, Goo Goo Dolls