You can’t always be somebody’s ‘forever’.
Sometimes you’re just their ‘summer’ or their ‘little while’ …
Sometimes not even that.
Sometimes the closest you’ll get is their ‘almost’ or their ‘maybe’.
And when they leave, the best you can hope for is to be their ‘what if’ or ‘remember when’ …
Because you can’t always be somebody’s ‘forever’ …
even if they were yours.
—The Saddest Truth of All
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I used to think that the universe will let me breathe if I would stop asking what it wants me to do; that I just need to seek what I want to do. So, I do that because I am done trying. I am actually doing things now. I am no longer waiting; I am not standing still. I am moving. But, why is it not enough?
What do you want from me, really? What am I supposed to do?
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I know sometimes we need to stay silent, but silence is scary. When someone doesn’t talk and it’s clear that he wants to say something, I’m scared what is running through inside his head. When someone doesn’t talk and it builds up inside, it will eventually explode. I saw how that kind of miscommunication ruined our family. It’s still traumatic for me.
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30. If you could, what is the one thing you would change about your past?
Tricky. Changing something from the past would just make me bury myself in what ifs and that is a terrible feeling. I have learned to accept my now. If I will change something, that will involve other people and I can’t do that. I can’t do that to them. I understand why they had to make such decisions, and changing that would mean that they would have to sacrifice their own happiness. I can’t take that away from them.
Read MoreIsn’t it sad how you don’t connect with someone anymore just as much as you did before? What’s worse is you don’t know if it is them slipping away and you are letting them or is it you loosing your grip just because? It’s sad when you don’t know why and it just happens. It goes both for romantic and platonic.
when words blend
I drowned when I was 11 (bless I’m still alive!), so when I say that I feel like drowning, I really know what it’s like.
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The waters are really beautiful, dangerously beautiful—like we are.
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It is okay to take in projects that pay cheap if it is not that hard. When it is and you really use all your brain cells for it, they need to pay the right price, yano? It is intellectual property, love your craft.
It is also true that you do not have to suffer from traffic if you work from home. Though, I must say that there are lots of freelancers who also need to go out and meet with the clients or certain brands. Some even work more than 8 hours a day. Sure, there are no boss around or colleagues who ruin your mood, but there are still set of deadlines. Most of the time, you have to bring your laptop with you because there are times you don’t know when you are needed.
Also, keep in mind that you are basically paying for your electricity and internet, unlike in the offices where it is not your problem.
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